♥ Sunday, September 06, 2009 @ 10:55 PM
`Funny, Ironic.. I dont know...
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Its weird.. I guess.. I always know that pets is going to grow old. I mean they all would be right? Eventually..
I had Kiki and maomao since i was in Sec 2. Got the urge to get myself a set of piggies.. The store owner told me that they would live up to a maximum of 5 years. From then till now is only 3 and a halve years.. But I guess i am not a really great owner then.. MaoMao is getting old.. Really old i guess.. His loud yeaps for food turn into low groans. His beautiful brown coat changes to a dull colour. And he started to drip saliva. So much signs that i just used to ignore.. Since i really dont want to accept the fact that he is not a baby anymore.. He just seems so small. So delicate. So vulnerable. My little baby...
I cried yesterday knowing that he cant eat solid food anymore... I wonder why did i not notice that earlier.. Blamed myself for that.. Hes getting thinner and thinner.. His body weight drop tremendously... I started wondering..How many times did he tried to bite food and failed? How long that he staved because of that. Why cant I see that earlier.Then maybe he wont be in such a state... Mummy hugged me and told me its not my fault.. Mao Mao is just getting old.. But.. The truth is.. I dont want him to get old. I dont want him to die. I dont mind at all to take care of him forever.. I dont want to see his weak body.. I just dont want to..
Why... Did that happen.. Although I knew that he is getting old.. I dont Know that he is getting that old. I dont know that he is getting so old that he might die soon....
He started to lose a lot of weight lately.. I know that his time is near.. But I just dont bare to say goodbye to him.. Why did this happen.. I though i am ready.. I had so many pets before.. Saying goodbye has never been that hard. Until now..
I guess all that i can do now.. Is to take care of him till his final days.. Make his life easier.. As much as possible.. At least I can be with peace with myself if i did that.. I hope..
